This whole time I've sat here
And gazed at the sanctuary
That housed my inhibitions

And wondered what it would be like
To be outside, to be free
Experiencing simple pleasures

I've been looking out at a world
Not based on reality, yet
Denying the true reality I had

Just for a moment, a fraction of a second
I grasped ahold of life --
Trying my hardest to not let go

To love with as much passion as I could conjure
To give everything I could possibly imagine
To really be someone.

I achieved a nirvana within me
Then watched with sorrow as it
Pulsed and faded away in seconds

Leaving me standing right back where I was before
In the temple where I wasted my entire life
Looking in