I heard your voice and what I'd thought
Was that I'd break, but I forgot

What we'd had I'd tucked away
And held it where it'll always stay

I could not place you in my mind
Nothing there that I could find

After wasting all my tears
On our love for years and years

All the sadness, alone I'd spent
Only made me disconnect

I did not have one single thought
This is real, but you are not

I did not feel one single thing
My arms fell thru you like a dream

Now nothing is all you are to me
It feels so cozy, I feel so free

I won't give in, I won't remember
I try so hard, I'll hold back forever

I will not go back, I do not believe it
But my lonliness somehow always retrieves it

I put up my defenses so no one will know
I can't seem to let my love for him go

The smile you see can't ever be real
I disarmed my soul, I can't feel

My smile you see is so very fake
But it's true to the hurt I can't seem to take

I've shut him down, I've taken him away
My attempts are silly, my love's here to stay

Within all my strength the hurt will pull thru
I can't help but love him, so what can I do?

When the ghost of my love comes to haunt me at night
And you hear my crying, then you'll know I'm alright